Did I Do That?

No, I am not actually a self-centered person, but with everything that is going on lately, I sometimes have this idea that it is all my fault. You see, around August of last year, we decided we were going to sell our house and move to our daughter's school district. Just to make everything easier on everyone concerned. So, in preparation, we paid off all our credit cards. No more interest payments, no more revolving debt, just to make sure we could qualify for the size of house we needed. We started buying what we needed with cash, which meant we bought significantly less. Now all the credit companies are failing, and I have to wonder, did we all have the same idea at the same time? I've often wondered what it would be like, what would happen, if everyone started living off of just what they have, like all the gurus suggested. Hm, maybe this is it? And if that's the case, the banks don't need a bailout, why continue a product that no longer sells? Of course now we are in the position that nothing is selling. We would buy a new car, but are afraid we'll lose our jobs, because no one is buying new cars. We would buy a house, especially now that prices have dropped so much, but oops, now we owe more on our house than we could get for it. This whole thing is a catch 22. What are we going to do? Everyone is saying that banks won't release the funds for new mortgages, I think its just that no one is asking. Hmm, what next? There are layoffs at work happening today, furloughs last month and next. Maybe if I stick my neck out there and tell hubby to buy a new car, everyone else will too? Come on, America! We need you to shop even more now than after 9/11, oh, but I'll wait til you're done, lol.

My first post

OK, I set this account up quite sometime ago, and have never blogged anything. Here it is at 2 am and I can't sleep, too much running through my head. Scary and exciting all at the same time.Big upheavals at work this week. Improvements. Realignments. Reorganization. A flattening of the reporting structure. Little boxes everywhere on the new Org Charts. Where's my box? My department no longer exists! Oh, there's my box, well, it's not garaunteed to be my box, but I've got a pretty good shot at keeping it. New department, new manager, new supervisor. At least I have a box, some don't. Good friends, good workers, more pedigreed than I. Would I trade places with them if I could? I'd like to say yes. A year ago I would have, for the severance and a little more time with the kids while they are young. But in these economic times? Sorry, no can do. Most of those leaving have degrees, they'll find other jobs. I can justify it that way in my mind, I guess, if it makes me feel better. I have too much to do. I have too much to pay for. I want so much, just like anybody else. We can always put the boys back in public school, dh says. That's always his fallback. He'd feel better if they were in a "normal" school, learning something. But that wouldn't make enough of a difference, so I'll take my new little white box, and keep the private, unique, New School for now. Maybe I'll get to learn something new. Maybe I'll go back to school, who knows. Maybe in another 6 months I'll get a severance package, too. Maybe, maybe, maybe. See why I can't sleep?